There's this part of me who is a Mommy.
But there's this other part of me who is a Person.
(For some reason being a Wife falls under the Person category, not the Mommy category, which surprises me a little.)
In Mommy land, I'm the most important thing on earth.
...except grandmas. No one can compete with grandmas.
In Mommy land, someone tells me a minimum of three times a day that I'm great.
|Me, Asher - 5|
Then he stuck his head to my leg like a magnet.
I'm pretty sure I died for a minute.
|Joshy - 8, me|
He wouldn't let go of my hug until I (reluctantly) had to make him let go and get some sleep.
In Person land, I am a completely different being.
In Person land, I feel inadequate and insecure.
In Person land, I am paranoid and jealous.
In Person land, I know certain rules about The Way Things Work...
but I ignore them all and can't manage to follow them.
I know it's entirely normal for men to be attracted to women.
(In fact, if they weren't, I wouldn't have a husband at all.)
In spite of this knowledge, I turn into a completely psycho crazy jealous monsterfreak if Husband even LOOKS like he might be looking at another woman.
I can spend an hour getting ready (very, very rare, as I am also living in Mommy land), perfect every last little detail of my makeup (which I take very seriously), straighten every strand of my hair and try on 8 different outfits...
and I still look in the mirror and wonder why Husband would even be with me.
Some day I'll figure out how to put Mommy & Person together into one cool semi-normal person.
Until then, Mommy land treats me well.
|Me, Max - 16 months|