The point is I'm searching. And the search scares me to death.
How do you know you're not hiring a freak? What if the person is fine, but her husband turns out to be a creep? What if I hire someone totally reliable and sweet, but I worry constantly anyway because there's just no way to really know? What if I don't find someone at all and I'm stuck in the FR forever? What if I find someone but can't afford to pay them?
Being a SaHM had its challenges, but this... this is a whole new ball game and it's so scary.